It has been over two months since last I saw and spoke to her and my heart has not forgotten her. I think of her always, how can you not, she is every where. She is there with the first rays of sunshine every morning, she is there in every breeze, she is there in every flower I see and smell, she is there in every sunset I wish we could see together, she is here in my heart, always.
Everyday I wish that I could see her pretty blue eyes, every day I wish that I could see her beautiful face, everyday I wish that I could run my hands through her lovely brown hair, everyday I wish that I could touch her face and play with her oh so cute nose, everyday I wish that I could hold her next to me, everyday I wish that I could kiss her soft lips, everyday I wish that she was here with me. I miss you so much, I miss your voice, your laugh, your silliness, your advice, your lovely simplicity, I miss you so much my Princess.
Here I stand unable to forget my Princess, heartbroken at the thought that I may never see her again. It would have been so easy if she had said that she no longer loved me, that I would have understood because I would not want to be with someone that didn’t love me but she has never said that and that is why I have fought so hard, hoping that she would see that.
I wish that you would let that wall around your heart fall for a second Princess, sit down and remember.
Just remember………….
Do you remember the first time that we spoke on the phone?, I do, listening to your voice for the first time made me smile.
Do you remember the first time that we saw each other?, I do, I was sitting in that bench at GSP looking for something in my backpack and then turned around and there you were, I fell in love with you as soon as I saw you.
Do you remember our first kiss?, I do, it was magical.
Do you remember when you almost broke up with me?, I do but we talked about it and worked it out.
Do you remember when we went to get food and you wanted to borrow my cap because you were having a bad hair day?, I do and still can’t believe that I didn’t let you borrow it, such a gentleman.
Do you remember the first time that I met the kids?, I do and I loved them ever since.
Do you remember Bald Rock, Caesars Head and the paddle boats at Pinnacle Lake?, I do and loved every minute of it.
Do you remember when we stopped and bought boiled peanuts?, I do and I remember that I didn’t like them.
Do you remember when I gave you my ring?, I do, I wanted you to wear it and that made me happy.
Do you remember our first misunderstanding at GSP?, I do, you even returned my ring.
Do you remember that I stayed an extra day because the weather was bad in Chicago?, I do and I didn’t mind one bit.
Do you remember the next day we went to downtown Greenville?, I do and will forever remember it because that is the day that I knew that I loved your town.
Do you remember that cold night in L.A. when we were walking to the car, you had my jacket on and I asked for it because I was cold myself?, I do, I was such a gentleman again.
Do you remember when we were driving on Sunset Blvd heading to the beach and what You saw?, I do, you kept asking me, “did you see that?”, I didn’t, I was driving but you laughed so hard.
Does my one stupid mistake outweigh all the wonderful times we shared?. Just read through our old e-mails and texts to remember just how much fun we had. We had so many dreams, so much hope, so much to look forward to. Relationships are hard and I can’t help but think that you just gave up, you gave up so easily and I still don’t know why. To me it is too precious to be just thrown away without fighting for it and It hurts me that you didn’t think that I was worthy of another chance.
My hope is that you will remember and that spark will burn again like it did before, like it does inside me and hopefully then you will reconsider because I know that deep inside your sweet love hasn’t died. “So please don’t, please don’t, please don’t, there is not need to complicate, ’cause our time is short, this is, this is, this is our fate, I m yours.” Yes, I am crazy for you and the reason why is “cause I love you, yes I love you, oh how I love you.”
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